I closed my heart

I closed my heart
I can’t say why
(Who else knew the combination?)
Survival or salvation
Who isn’t key to their own lock
Lock to their own door
Door to their own prison
It was God who turned me inside out
She saw it was my better side
Now I cannot live for long
Vadar without his mask
Munro without her camera
Shades of grey
And black and white
I am the snail without its shell
The gadfly
Who lives only
For today.